Monday, June 1, 2009
Have not been posting for awhile... been thinking a lot about my life...
Where is it taking me?
What will I become?
If I die today, who will my death impact if any at all?
What's the point of my existence?
Why does even the simple contentment of a quiet night elude me?
Who or what do I live for?
Why is it that my every waking moment filled with pain and hurt?
And yet I feel nothing from torturing myself?
Is everything I do meaningless?
Why do people keep looking for me to find trouble?
More than that... why doesn't anyone stand up for me when I need help although I've done so so many times for them? Why have you all abandoned me?
I've come up with this conclusion of irony "The helper assists all... But who aids the helper?"
Still... I'm not so arrogant as to claim that no one offered me concern... Thanks Sam... You're the only one who was vaguely aware of my mental state... Even if the advise you give made me feel worse off than before... I know you meant well... That is good enough for me^^
Everyday it feels like I'm going to die... Or rather, I'm definitely going to die the next time...
Labels: random stuff
Signing off at...
10:35 PM
