Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Sick With a Dash of Happiness
ACK!!! Food poisoning!!! Could things get any worse? Well thanks to the MC I got, I guess it's a good excuse to finally update my blog Ʃ:3 (this Ʃ:3 is a cat smiley by the way hahas)
Well... I've been really hard at work brushing up my art skills in drawing anime sketches, and I'm all for posting them on my blog, but with one minor problem, my scanner's resolution is not up to par and my camera lost it's USB cable.
Hmm... well, I'm sure I'll think of some alternatives soon, but for now, let me show some of the scans that DID turn out ok Ʃ:3
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9:38 PM
Friday, March 25, 2011
Yoz, it's been awhile but I finally got round to using my computer again:) hahas... I did mention that I'll be posting something surprising this time around. It took me awhile but I finally managed to get a hold of the pictures I needed.
Well we had a baptism in church recently, and usually we buy a bouquet of flowers for those getting baptised. In this instance, one of the smaller flowers on one of the bouquets fell out. Not wanting to throw it away, Wei Xiong put it on my head just to see the effect.
Not bad eh? Hahas, amazing what a flower can do to someone's image. The following one is a candid shot taken by Hui Wen in KAP Mac. (Well I spotted her trying to take it, hence my eyes looking at the camera.
And finally, a last one of me striking a girlish pose before I left for home hahas... Attracted many second looks on the bus hahas!!!
Well that's that hahas... I recieved many compliments from people about this, such as, "It takes a real man, confident enough in his masculinity to pull a stunt like this." and, "好man喔!"
Hahas... maybe they were being sarcastic come to think of it, but all in all a fun day :)
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9:56 AM
Monday, March 14, 2011
Duty Barrage Finally Over!!!
Been on duty for 5 weeks straight, pretty crazy I know, some had a bad case of foot rot and I had to cover his duty on top of my own. And when I thought I was done, someone drove his car into a pillar and got himself banned from driving. So I had to cover his weekend duties too. So I haven't been home in a loooooong loooooooong while.
Well but it's back to camp tomorrow and lots more work to do :( hmm... I think I'm finally using my time properly now. Been in a slump for quite awhile, but on the plus side, I got the inspiration to do some uncharacteristic things like baking a cake or learning how to play the guitar. Hahas... I was just a phase, but I guess it's great that some good did come out of it.
Just started on Dissidia 012 and my fingers hurt :( I guess that's what I get for spamming the PSP 18 hours a day for a week hahas... I think I'll do something surprising for my next post :)
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10:10 AM
Saturday, February 19, 2011
汝星合拍的 两人的脚步声
与远方逐渐传来的 冬之音重叠
并肩得美丽的 两个人影
春天相遇的你 稍微长高了一些
共享相同当下的我们却梦见了不同的明天
「这样也无所谓」微微笑着
你的笑容看起来却太难过
几乎像是自豪般的 什么都做不到
想要待在你身边 只能如此希望
即使一切 都消失不见了
我们此刻找到的事物
永远在此地
不断闪闪发光
相触的指稍 流入的温度
与你合而为一 唯一的瞬间
熟悉的街道 始终不变的我
被放置遗忘于 流逝而去的季节之中
我们在分离的世界 假装着相互理解
直到能伸手碰触到那颗星星的日子到来之前
还需要堆叠多少思念呢
几乎像要满溢而出般地 爱着你
向黎明前刻的星星们 深深祈愿
纵使一切 终将消失而去
残留到最后 唯一的
微弱光芒
是我们所找到的答案
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2:08 AM
Friday, February 11, 2011
Been having weird dreams recently, dreams that somehow always end up with me getting killed.
There's one where I was chased through a forest, I was running for several hours when I reached a rock wall. With no where to run I tried to climb it, I was nearly to the top when my strength gave out and I fell down to the earth, probably with my head squashed.
There's another where I saw the faces of my friends around me, we were all captured and held hostage. We were told that if we would sacrifice one of us they would let the rest go. I was betrayed when the rest volunteered me, but strangely I didn't feel afraid or angry. I looked at my friends and smiled as a knife cut my throat. Though I died, I felt peace knowing that my friends could escape.
There's this dream where I was forced to fight in a war, as a soldier I charged enemy lines with my M-16 rifle with my squad. We were following our commander when he got shot in the head by the enemy, in the confusion we were killed one by one and eventually, I died too.
Not sure what all these mean, but I bet it has something to do with what I'm reading now hahas... probably should cut down on war stories, or at least sleep a little earlier :P
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10:00 AM
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Title: I Wanna Be Your World
Someday I will tell you,
Do you remember this little wish?
Outside my broken memories,
It feels like a dream I can't wake up from.
I look at what lies before your eyes.
I never seem to understand it but,
What's your outlook on the world?
Are you aware that,
I wanna be your world.
(I wanna be your world)
My feelings want to reach you,
But they are interrupted by a cold wall.
I fear that it's something that can't be changed.
This scenery melts down.
The moonlight shines upon you,
An unbreakable light, just like your shadow.
I always said, "I can't get close to you!"
My tears fade away,
I wanna be your world.
(I wanna be your world)
This distance between you and me doesn't make sense,
This far, far sky is collapsing.
I see the stars falling from it,
And your figure disappearing too.
Just a little more to pierce through this glass wall,
I reach out my hand to touch you.
A rain of stardust falls upon us,
And it becomes one
(I wanna be your world)
I look at what lies before your eyes.
I never seem to understand it but,
What's your outlook on the world?
Are you aware that,
I wanna be your world.
(I wanna be your world)
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1:06 AM
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Not much of a week, finally managed to see my parents after 2 weeks (largely due to insane weekend duties).
Been listening to some love songs like "I Wanna Be Your World" and "Soundless Voice".
"I Wanna Be Your World" is about someone wants to convey that she loves someone, but everytime she tries, it's like a wall blocking her way... and after awhile, the distance between her and her love increases and eventually he fades away... but she still wants to be important to him (to be his world).
"Soundless Voice" is about a man who finds the girl he loves dead in a snow storm. Even then, he still yearns to hear her voice once more and cries as he waits for a miracle. Time passes and it became clear no miracle would happen, when he realizes that, he took comfort in the snow. Asking it to take him to her. And with that he dies.
I don't know about you, but personally the cold weather is getting to me. But there're memorable moments to be had in it too... Like drinking hot coffee while trying to keep warm... Sigh... not like the picture above though... I drank my Starbucks Latte alone.
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12:48 AM
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Yesh, believe it or not, I've finally decided to stick to a New Year's Resolution that's simple yet not so easy to fulfil. There are only 5:
1) Take one day off a week from camp till I ORD.(so far so good)
2) Do at least 30 sit-ups a day.(this got busted in the first week *insert sad face*)
3) Learn how to play the guitar to play the song "That's When I Love You"(fingers dying)
4) Find a school I can go to after NS.(in-progress)
5) Continue my novel.(no comment, it's depressing enough as it is)
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I saw something recently on one of my nights-out of camp, I bought a ticket to watch
Guliver's Travels alone. But as I was waiting for the ticket attendant to start accepting tickets, a guy in Lot1 cineplex was waiting for his girlfriend and he looked a little nervous/angry/worried. I guess he was waiting for quite awhile and got a little high strung. But as soon as his girlfriend showed up, that look of relief on his face was so plain that it almost hurt me to watch.
His GF made a show of apologising for her lateness and he was saying that it was alright (trying to look every inch the confident and mature BF). As they entered the cinema the girl gave him a peck on his cheek for good measure, before their conversation collapsed into good natured bickering.
It's rare to see a couple so close that they can argue about everything, and have fun doing it. It shows that they've been together for awhile now, and yet not take each other for granted from the genuine concern the guy showed and the natural, chaste peck on the cheek the girl gave.
Somehow, when I looked at those two, I felt a slight pain in my heart accompanied with the thought,
I guess there's hope for the couples of today afterall.Labels: random stuff
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7:55 PM
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
It's been awhile since I had a post for discussions hahas... I wanna share something I realized while reflecting on the year 2010 as I planned my New Year Resolutions hahas... The topic this time would be on pain.
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Each time you get hurt, you come out of it a little stronger, and at some point you realize that there are more flavours of pain than ice-cream. There's the little empty pain of leaving something behind - graduating, taking the next step forward, walking out of something familiar and safe into the unknown. There's the big whirling pain of life upending all your plans and expectations. There's the sharp little pains of failure, and the more obscure aches of successes that didn't give you what they thought they would. There are the vicious, stabbing pains of hopes being torn up. The sweet little pains of finding others, giving them your love, and taking joy in their life as they grow and learn. There's the steady pain of empathy that you shrug off so you can stand beside a wounded friend and help them bear their burdens.
And if you're very, very lucky, there are very few blazing hot little pains you feel when you realize that you are standing in a moment of utter perfection, an instant of triumph, or happiness, or mirth which at the same time cannot possibly last - and yet will remain with you for life. Everyone is down on pain, because they forget something important about it: pain is for the living. Only the dead don't feel it.
Pain is a part of life. Sometimes it's a big part, and sometimes it isn't, but either way it teaches you, tells you you're alive. Then it passes away and leaves you changed. It leaves you wiser, sometimes. Sometimes it leaves you stronger. Either way, pain leaves its mark, and everything important that will ever happen to you in life is going to involve it in one degree or another.
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1:49 PM
Thursday, December 30, 2010
I remembered the strongholds of nightmares and terrors I had invaded, the dark gates I'd kicked down. I remembered the faces of prisoners I helped to free, and the funerals of those I couldn't save due to my own cowardice. I remembered the sounds of voices and laughter, the joy of loved ones reunited, the tears of the lost and bereaved. Memories like that hurt like hell - but pain wasn't anything special or new. I'd lived with it before, and would do it again. It wasn't the first thing I'd seen, and it wouldn't be the last. I will NOT roll over and die just because it hurts.
There are bad things in the world. There's no getting away from that. But that doesn't mean nothing can be done about them. You can't abandon life just because it's scary, and just because sometimes you get hurt.
Life is tough, and if you have the ability to laugh at it you have the ability to enjoy it.
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10:51 AM
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
You know what?
Forget it.
Just forget it.
You can smile and pretend.
But just forget it.
Please.Labels: random stuff
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7:14 PM
Monday, December 20, 2010
I've been sulking a little recently. Because
someone made me jealous. Zzz... kinda childish and immature of me, but heck, I wanna be an angsty selfish teenager for once. I've never done so in my teenage years, so I want to experience it at least once.
Sigh... with this, I'll be gone for awhile, don't bother contacting.
Childish.My dream may not come true. No, it definitely won't come true. The future I wanted to have is gone. All I can see now is darkness. How am I supposed to live? What am I supposed to...?Labels: random stuff
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12:40 AM
Sunday, December 19, 2010
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love you,
I love you anyway
Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
That's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you, no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
That's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what
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12:21 PM
Monday, December 13, 2010
In Critical Need of a Good Night's Sleep
Sigh... Feeling really tired, really need a vacation zzz...
So I guess it's a good thing I'm taking the whole of next week off:) hahas a chance to get some R&R and generally get away from technology and everything else. Need to think of some stuff and to sort out my mind, been feeling too confused and irritable recently for my own good.
Like behaving uncharacteristically short tempered compared to the usual me. Or being unnecessarily cruel/difficult to the people I deal with. I can blame the fatigue all I want, but the actions that have been done are inexcusable and undoubtedly done by me. I'm sorry.
I read a book recently, and there was a quote which struck me strongly: "
Dreams are much like curses. People who can't achieve their dreams and people who give up on their dreams will always be cursed by them." You can blame me for being persistent, you can blame me for being irritating, you can blame me for being too deep in idiocy for my own good. But don't blame me for trying to live my life without regrets.
I know you'll be there for me and I'm happy to settle for that. Trust me.
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10:45 PM
Friday, December 10, 2010
Had an awesome week this time:) filled with a whirlwind of emotions and a whirlwind of quirky situations hahas...
To sum up:
I had my heart broken, repaired it somehow.
Then felt like dying due to overwork, drove on practically the whole of Monday to Tuesday with only a little sleep and a mountain of paperwork to tackle:(
Later on Thursday, I was on duty again to send the people reporting sick to the medical center, but the van I was driving broke down. Had to call a tow truck and then walk 4km to the medical center with a bunch of ill people.
And Friday I had a heritage tour to attend. But I felt my primary takeaway was mosquito bites. so that was a waste of time lol... also bade Raph, Jia Jun and En Liang farewell since they ORD today. Gonna miss those jokers hahas...
All in all a could-have-been-better week. But rather lonely in my opinion. Luckily Poliwag can always be relied on for comfort whenever I'm home:)
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7:27 PM
Sunday, November 28, 2010
I'm going outfield next week from Tuesday to Thursday. Not very sure where I'm going or what I'm going to do there. But I've decided to have fun all the same hahas:) I can finally have a break from all the guard duties:) only driving duty for me from now on:) hahas... which is considered slack compared to being duty guard:)
Well... trying to keep to my principle of preparing presents for friends 1 month in advance but it doesn't seem to be going very well... Just a quick update for the Xmas giveaways:
Ming Yi: No idea what to get him for now
Yu Xian: Probably something he can use in BMT (I know you're reading this :P)
Wei Xiong: Getting him a green sweater if I can find one (lucky he doesn't read this blog lol)
Bernice: Have a rough idea (I know you're reading this too so I'm not revealing anything lol)
Jerrold: Making something that can encourage him
Stephanie: A sketch of her that I'll obtain as a favour from another friend
Wan Xin-jie: Something anime related??
Jie Hau-ge: No idea :(
Kong Sheng: Not sure too... maybe a figurine?
Bryan: A nice book :)
Ian: Something Arsenal related
Yea... that's all I've thought of till now... hahas... I hope I can get it done though... hmm... well been feeling lethargic recently... a think/hope it's due to my efforts to get away from coffee(somehow I doubt it).
Sigh... I met up with someone who I used to know a long time ago, someone I cared about, someone who had the same dreams as I did and I can't believe how someone can change so much in such a short period of time. I guess no matter how much we were alike before... Now I am me, and you are you. Though I'm sad we are on different paths, I'm glad we could at least say goodbye :)
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8:20 PM
Friday, November 26, 2010
Went out with Bernice today:) Hahas... first time I've been greeted with these words, "Hey, you were too short and I didn't notice you." Pretty amazing stuff hahas... *sobs*
We ate lunch and went shopping around for some stuff. She bought a notebook, and couldn't find a pencil. I couldn't find the books I was looking for but I found something else instead :) Confused? Same here hahas...
After we said goodbye I went to Woodlands to borrow a book and then I got home in time to go out with my parents for their 26th wedding anniversary. We ate at Jack's Place and had lots of interesting conversation hahas... like how my parents planned their wedding and how their lifestyle was like before having kids hahas...
Went home after that and I slept after blogging hahas...
I've been wondering why are we wired to love others? We do silly things, have silly hopes and, when we care enough, feel silly when we're hurt. But how come even though I've cried my tears dry that day, you still appear in my dreams?Labels: random stuff
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10:15 PM
Thursday, November 25, 2010
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on
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7:12 PM
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Hahas... had an awesome day in church yesterday. Yu Xian is going to NS this thursday so we decided to perform a skit to mark this chapter of his life. We performed the main events a soldier has to go through in BMT in 4 scenes. I took the role as the sergeant and the rest (Ming Yi, Jerrold, Wei En, Daniel and Wei Xiong) acted as the soldiers. Scene 1 was the day they enlist, Scene 2 was a routine PT session, Scene 3 was their field camp and Scene 4 was their 24km route march.
Had lots of fun, and everything was well rehearsed. Along with Kong Sheng playing the NS song on the guitar as we did the song, the overall effect turned out really nicely:)
My favourite moment was this,
Daniel: My name is Daniel, but you can call me 大牛, or Sir...lon steak.
Me: Sirlon steak? Well-done.
Jerrold: That's rare.
Hahas... All making steak references hahas.
Glad things turned out ok, especially since we spent the whole evening+night on friday practicing hahas...
Oh talking about friday, I bought a pair of vocaloid plushies and they're so cute! Hahas... Kagamine Rin and Len. A pair of vocaloid twins:) They're really rare so I felt really lucky I managed to find them hahas...
[I'LL UPLOAD PICS OF THEM WHEN I HAVE THE TIME]
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5:31 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Hahas... went out today to meet the lifegroup:) we met at Orchard Road around 4pm. People who went were Yu Xian, Ming Yi, Jerrold, Wei Xiong, Hui Jie, Kong Sheng, Wan Xin-Jie, Hui Wen, Debra, Eugene, Mei Yu, Wei En, Yang En, Kenneth Zhang, Daniel and me:) Hahas so many people, we had a nightmare finding a location where we can eat together hahas. In the end we settled on Astons in Suntec City.
I can still imagine the look on the waiter's face when we told him out head count hahas... but luckily the manager for the day happens to be Wei En's ex-classmate, and so we somehow managed to find seats for all of us. Hahas... I ordered a Black Pepper Chicken(regretted it) and some mashed potatoes(enjoyed it) and a bottle of IBC Root Beer(loved it). We left around 7 plus.
After paying and whatnot, we were faced with the dilemma. The girls wanted to go shopping while the guys wanted to play cards at Mac. In the end we split to two groups. Leaving a small number of guys to go shopping with the girls as escorts(me included) lol... we shopped for Xmas presents and some clothes, but we never bought any for the latter, deciding with our better judgement to wait for the CNY sale before we start to look for it. We rejoined the rest at Mac later, and went our separate ways home around 9pm. hahas... nice way to spend a holiday... haven't gone out with such a big group recently:)
Oh yes, I recently started drawing for fun hahas... I came up with Angwy Penguin!!! (note that this is not a typo) hahas hope we can see more of him in future :)
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New possibilities get you excited no matter how old you are.
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