It may or may not make any sense to anyone or including myself, but I'm doing this for the sheer heck of it. If you feel disturbed or weirded out after reading then please direct all your opinions to the imaginary friend to your left. Without further ado, I shall now begin.

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ARAGHHHHHH!!!!! My studies sucks... if I can't get into uni how?! DIE LA!!!!!! never mind, my dad told me that I can be a road sweeper hahas!!! Eh... but not bad what... society also needs road sweepers right? hahas... But seriously sia... if I can't get into university then how?!

WRAGAHHHH!!!!!! I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die *deep breath* I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die.... *another deep breath*... I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die I'm gonna die!!!!!

sob sob... feel like crying sia... like no matter how much I revise also no use... oh no... my future's gonna be ruined and there's not a thing I can do about it! ARAGHHHH!!!! pathetic... useless... futile... everythings gone up in smoke... zzz...

Sianz... don't want to think about this le... hmm... now have more time for friends I've been neglecting... hahas... WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... I don't need any girl in my life to be happy^^ hahas... Even if start a relationship now 80% chance will break-up while I'm in NS anyway^^ so staying single now is the best choice^^ hahas... but still worried though... since I seem to attract guys more... if in NS I get raped how? scary sia... so many guys there who're deprived of female company... they turn their attention onto me then how?

Shoot... now I'm scaring myself... maybe I should get used to carrying a knife to sleep from now on... oh no... What if I'll never be able to get a girlfriend in future?! What if the only people I'll attract are guys?! What if I get raped?! What if I can't get married?! What if girls see that guys chase me then think I'm gay?! What if I never run out of what ifs?!

Scary right? sob sob... now I scare myself till I want a girlfriend le... sob sob... *hmm... I'm a very confused and messed up kid hahas...*

Hmm... my throat infection nearly recovered le... hahas... so happy^^ just in time too^^ my birthday coming le...

Some people are asking me, "When is it?"

My answer is "If you're really my friend then you should know."

They would usually reply, "If you won't say then we also won't know right?"

Then I'll retort, "I'm not that hyped up on the whole birthday thing anyway..."

The face I get is usually -_-lll

Hahas... but it's true... I really don't wanna proclaim my birthday for everyone to hear... but I know that I'll definately say my birthday at least once to each of my friends... if I'm really important to you then you'd remember what I've said... hahas... but no hard feelings if you can't remember... I won't blame anyone... hahas... my birthday is just another day on my calendar after all...

The day I was born is a day which I should feel depressed I think... because it's the day I'm brought into this fallen world of suffering and hate... How can I possibly look to this day with expectation?

But I'll admit... the friends who I love and love me in return... those who know my feelings of despair and therefore resolve to help me make this day a joy to me... I thank you from the bottom of my heart... you guys are the ones I'm living for after all^^

YOU GUYS ARE WHAT MAKE ME LAUGH AND CRY...

YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND ME WHEN NO ONE ELSE WILL...

YOU GUYS GOTTEN ME TO LOVE LIVING WHETHER I LIKE IT OR NOT...

YOU GUYS ONLY GIVE ME YOUR BEST...

YOU GUYS NETTLE ME TO KEEP ON STUDYING...

YOU GUYS EXPLAIN MY WRONGS TO ME...

YOU GUYS SUPPORT ME WHEN I'M LOOKING FOR TROUBLE...

YOU GUYS INDULGE WITH ME WHEN I'M LOOKING FOR TROUBLE TOO...

YOU GUYS XENOFY MY PASSION ON FFVII*note that I didn't say you're right in this case*

I LOVE YOU ALL... *even though there're only 4 of you hahas...*

Hahas... well... I gave a clue when's my birthday in the above section in all the caps... lets see if anyone can decipher^^ hahas... ok... I guess I'm done here... hahas... take care everyone