Running tomorrow, probably doing a 10km run or a 21km run. Not entirely sure which but I'll probably not be able to finish anyway. Zzz... I haven't been training my stamina in driving course, I guess I can manage 5km or so, maybe even 7km. But 10 or 21 is a little overboard don't you think?

Well, life isn't going all that well for me right now, been feeling really down recently, stuff with some friends and family. Feeling really hurt that the people I care about just don't care or even look down on me. Which are the same people I respect and love.

I feel so useless and sad that no matter how much I try... I can't please everybody that matter to me. Most of the time it's not even my fault. I'm in NS now and so I'm forced to work within the system. Just because I'm back in my slack unit doesn't mean I can go out to entertain people anytime I want. So I'd really appreciate it if people can understand that though they probably can't or won't.

I'm just feeling sick of so many things now, maybe running till my legs get torn apart tomorrow would make me feel better. Yeah, I guess that's what I'll do. Yup enough whining, good night.