Basically, means I'll be learning how to service vehicles hahas... so far I learnt quite abit of stuff :) Did you know that you spend around $100 every year to service your cars when the process and materials used cost actually around $25 at the most? hahas... and it's so easy to change the oil filter and change the dirty oil to clean oil:) hahas...
It's a 3 week course. Stay out. So I'll be around a lot hahas... so far kinda unwilling to make friends at the course... especially since we'd probably not be seeing each other again once the course ends. When all the trainees go back to their respective units.
Hahas... had a pleasant surprise today when I saw Jon Jon at the bus stop outside the camp. Apparently he has on-site training. Though we didn't talk much, I noticed his voice changed a alot! Now sounds so deep. Not kiddy like last time hahas...
Really stressful week I've had... a lot of mess ups in the paperwork and the detail clerks (a few people including me) have to clear up the mess including getting punished for being the messenger. It got so bad that one day I hid under the computer desk hoping no one noticed me. it worked for an hour or so... until I started snoring -_-lll luckily they treated it like a joke.
Moving on, I went to watch Devil recently, it was a pretty good movie, about how 5 people were trapped in an elevator and one of them is the Devil who wants to kill the other 4. And a person dies when the lights in the elevator blacks out. The show keeps viewers guessing who is the Devil and only reveals the truth at the end. Totally didn't see that coming hahas. But it's frustrating to know how young I look. It's an NC-16 movie but the ticket collector asked me for my IC. I don't even look 16? Riddiculous right? zzz...
Hahas... i'm down with Kokoro fever this week. To spread the joy i'll post the lyrics of the song in kanji, romanji and english translations. Here we go: -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Kanji translation
Kodoku na kagakusha ni tsukurareta robotto dekibae o iu nara “kiseki”
dakedo mada tarinai hitotsu dake dekinai sore wa “kokoro” to iu puroguramu
ikuhyaku toshi ga sugi hitori de nokosareta kiseki no robotto wa negau
shiritai ano hito ga inochi no owari made watashi ni tsukutteta “kokoro”
ima ugoki hajimeta kasoku suru kiseki nazeka namida ga tomaranai… naze watashi furueru? kasoku suru kodou kore ga watashi no nozonda “kokoro”?
fushigi kokoro kokoro fushigi watashi wa shitta yorokobu koto o fushigi kokoro kokoro fushigi watashi wa shitta kanashii koto o fushigi kokoro kokoro fushigi nande fukaku setsunai…?
ima kidzuki hajimeta umareta riyuu o kitto hitori wa sabishii sou, ano hi, ano toki subete no kioku ni yadoru “kokoro” ga afuredasu
ima ieru hontou no kotoba sasageru anata ni
arigatou… kono yo ni watashi o unde kurete arigatou… isshoni sugoseta hibi o arigatou… anata ga watashi ni kureta subete arigatou… eien ni utau
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- English translation
“Heart”
There was a robot created by a lonely scientist, It was known as a “miracle”.
But something was missing, there was one thing that couldn’t be made, And that was a “Heart”, it's a program.
A hundred years passed, Left all alone, The miraculous robot made a single wish:
"I want to know what he was making, Till the very end of his life, Making for me, this "Heart".
Now it started to move, Miracle accelerating. Why, why won’t my tears stop flowing…? Why am I shaking? Heartbeat accelerating? Is this what I wished for? This "Heart"?
Mysterious heart, mysterious feelings, Now I know how to feel joy, Mysterious heart, mysterious feelings, Now I know how to feel sorrow, Mysterious heart, mysterious feelings, They all seem so deep and painful…
Now I’m beginning to understand the reason I was born, Being alone must truly be depressing, Yes, on that day, at that time, In every memory, the "Heart" that lives is overflowing.
But now, I can say true words, And I dedicate them all to you,
Thank you… for bringing me into this world. Thank you… for the days you spent with me. Thank you… for everything you’ve given me Thank you… I will sing for eternity."
Aww... I've fallen in love with the music box version of Kokoro recently :) I've always liked the song, always on the lookout for its variations and remixes, the piano version, duet version, Rin version, Len version, human version, vocaloid version, karaoke version, etc. and now I have the music box version!! Hahas... oh man if only I can find out where they make actual music boxes that can play this song hahas... Maybe it's because I know the lyrics of the original song... It's a little corny maybe... but it touches my heart. Here's what it sounds like
-------------------------------------------------------------------- I dream, therefore I become.
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.e sruoc gniv ird morf denru ter tsuj I woh sa gniees hcum en od evah t'n dluoc I naem I ,meht dneffo ot did I tahw w onk t'nod I ...hgiS .os od ot mih gni garuoc ne era pmac ni elp oep eht taht pleh t'ns eod ti ,noitp irc sed boj ym fo trap nev e t'nsi hcihw ym no kr ow gnili p si dna ym sekilsid tnaegres yM .em dn uora elp oep eht yb truh yll aer neeb ev'I yltnec eR
.tam rof esrev er sih t ni tuo swo rros ym lla ruop ll'I ss eug I .eru tan evit isnes sti ot eud t'nac tub yas ot tnaw I sgn iht yn am ,ll eW -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Your dreams are like fire, it waxes and wanes, appears in a blaze of glory and disappears like an illusion of the night.
Running tomorrow, probably doing a 10km run or a 21km run. Not entirely sure which but I'll probably not be able to finish anyway. Zzz... I haven't been training my stamina in driving course, I guess I can manage 5km or so, maybe even 7km. But 10 or 21 is a little overboard don't you think?
Well, life isn't going all that well for me right now, been feeling really down recently, stuff with some friends and family. Feeling really hurt that the people I care about just don't care or even look down on me. Which are the same people I respect and love.
I feel so useless and sad that no matter how much I try... I can't please everybody that matter to me. Most of the time it's not even my fault. I'm in NS now and so I'm forced to work within the system. Just because I'm back in my slack unit doesn't mean I can go out to entertain people anytime I want. So I'd really appreciate it if people can understand that though they probably can't or won't.
I'm just feeling sick of so many things now, maybe running till my legs get torn apart tomorrow would make me feel better. Yeah, I guess that's what I'll do. Yup enough whining, good night.
But first... let me talk a little on what's been happening. I finished driving course, I can drive 4 kinds of military vehicles now, two class 3 and two class 4 vehicles hahas... and my birthday passed a few weeks ago, had a nice time with everyone who celebrated with me. Life Group performed a (pokemon themed) skit for me and I got a Poliwag shirt from them, Jerold gave me a book by John Grisham (a really good read), Stephanie gave me a necklace and a display sword, Yu Xian's present is still pending, Rey got me a new wallet and treated me to lunch, my bro also treated me to lunch and we watched a movie and Bernice treated me to lunch too as well as got me playing DDR hahas... Thanks to all of you, love you guys! Hahas... okok... now on with my list :) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- #10
Name: Loke Anime: Fairy Tail Age: Timeless What I like: A celestial spirit (hence the timeless age), he is very loyal to his friends, to the point that he would willingly let harm come to himself to protect those he cares for. He used to be flirtatious, but that was because it was a trait he picked up from his previous master. I like him because he looks cool and can be very passionate when truly in love (though one-sided).
#9
Name: Asakura Hao Anime: Shaman King Age: 13 What I like: Has a god-complex and wants to control the world and has the power to back that claim up, power to destroy and remake the world along with the power to read minds. Calm, cruel and usually all smiles, to me he is more or less the epitome of "power" in anime universe.
#8
Name: Mifune Anime: Soul Eater Age: Middle-aged (probably around 35 to 40) What I like: Mifune is the archetypical "strong, silent type", consummately stoic and professional but with a weakness for children. As a man, he sees himself as a protector of the defenseless, especially children. A powerful samurai, he uses a unique style of fighting where he only uses 1 katana to fight and at the same time using an infinite number of katana (hard to explain, watch the anime). I like his philosophy of life and well... I like kids too hahas.
#7
Name: Usui Takumi Anime: Kaicho wa Maid-sama! Age: 17 What I like: Usui is a very secretive person. He is also a very popular boy in school because of his looks and talent, and although he is as popular as he is, he doesn't let it go to his head. Actually, he seems to think the whole popularity-thing is rather troublesome. Usui is one of the best students in his school, if not the best, excelling in most subjects and sports. He excels in playing chess, the violin, cooking, formal table etiquette as well as most sports. He is a quarter British and is able to speak English fluently. He likes observing. Epic is the word I use to describe him.
#6
Name: Accelerator Anime: Toaru Majutsu no Index Age: 16 What I like: Accelerator has been targeted by assassins and researchers throughout his life. As a result, he believes only in power and trusts no one. He willingly joined the experiment to gain a reputation as the most powerful and feared psychic that no one would dare be foolish enough to challenge him. In his own way, he's a pacifist since he wants to be so strong that no one would fight him anymore and so he won't have to hurt anyone else. I admire the way he tries hard to reach to the light though it rejects him. And the way he is borderline psychotic hahas... And his white hair XD
#5
Name: Archer Anime: Fate/stay Night Age: Timeless What I like: Possesses a personality that is thoroughly realistic, but at the same time devoted and even a little bit childish, to the point that makes him hard to hate. Doesn't lie but does keep secrets. Sarcastic but that is just his way to give advice. I've got a thing with white hair on guys so I was immediately attracted to his character design. I like his strong presence.
#4
Name: Ayasaki Hayate Anime: Hayate no Gotoku! Age: 16 What I like: Hayate is a very selfless and generous person, always trying to help others in need even if it means causing harm to himself. He is very independent and skilled in many things, i.e being a good cook, housekeeper, and he can even identify fake works of art among many others. However, Hayate is rather dense when it comes to love. His poor empathy is always troubling him as he always misunderstands the feelings of people around him. This is probably because of his innocent personality and inexperience with girl's thoughts and feelings.
#3
Name: Allen Walker Anime: D.Gray-Man Age: 16 What I like: Allen is nice, caring, and well-mannered, always polite. He always thinks of the lives of others before himself, often putting himself in harm's way for other people's sakes. After his family had abandoned him because of his strange left arm, he was sent to a foster home. On Christmas day, when Allen was 7, he was adopted by a travelling circus performer named Mana. However, Mana died four years later. He always remembers his promise to Mana, which is to always continue to walk, to move forward. I wish I had his strength and convictions... and white hair :(
#2
Name: Hibari Kyoya Anime: Katekyo Hitman Reborn! Age: 16 What I like: He is the leader of the Discipline Committee, which are formed out of a group of delinquents who all are loyal to Hibari. He prefers to be alone and cares little for his subordinates. He loves his hometown more than anything and will often say "I'll bite you to death," or "kamikorosu," to those that disturb the school. Hibari is very proud of his school and is apparently the only person who likes their school's anthem, even using it as his ringtone. He's like a cloud which drifts anywhere it pleases... I envy his freedom.
#1
Name: Cloud Strife Anime: Final Fantasy VII Age: 21 What I like: Cloud is a much more somber and dark character, tormented by his past. But despite the dark feelings he may have, Cloud remains steadfastly loyal and true to those he cares about and is always driven to protect them, even going as far as to hide his pain and emotions so he could not worry them. Overall, while he has a rather moody demeanor, he does have a sense of humour. He reminds me of myself in the past... I'm glad I've changed a lot since then, but I still can identify many of my weaknesses in Cloud, I want to be stronger, strong enough to overcome my lack of confidence, and to overcome my fear of my own heart. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Thank you for being born into this world, for the days we went through together, for everything you gave me, and for your sincere heart.
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