Thursday, December 30, 2010
I remembered the strongholds of nightmares and terrors I had invaded, the dark gates I'd kicked down. I remembered the faces of prisoners I helped to free, and the funerals of those I couldn't save due to my own cowardice. I remembered the sounds of voices and laughter, the joy of loved ones reunited, the tears of the lost and bereaved. Memories like that hurt like hell - but pain wasn't anything special or new. I'd lived with it before, and would do it again. It wasn't the first thing I'd seen, and it wouldn't be the last. I will NOT roll over and die just because it hurts.
There are bad things in the world. There's no getting away from that. But that doesn't mean nothing can be done about them. You can't abandon life just because it's scary, and just because sometimes you get hurt.
Life is tough, and if you have the ability to laugh at it you have the ability to enjoy it.
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Signing off at...
10:51 AM
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
You know what?
Forget it.
Just forget it.
You can smile and pretend.
But just forget it.
Please.Labels: random stuff
Signing off at...
7:14 PM
Monday, December 20, 2010
I've been sulking a little recently. Because
someone made me jealous. Zzz... kinda childish and immature of me, but heck, I wanna be an angsty selfish teenager for once. I've never done so in my teenage years, so I want to experience it at least once.
Sigh... with this, I'll be gone for awhile, don't bother contacting.
Childish.My dream may not come true. No, it definitely won't come true. The future I wanted to have is gone. All I can see now is darkness. How am I supposed to live? What am I supposed to...?Labels: random stuff
Signing off at...
12:40 AM
Sunday, December 19, 2010
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love you,
I love you anyway
Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
That's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you, no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
That's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what
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Signing off at...
12:21 PM
Monday, December 13, 2010
In Critical Need of a Good Night's Sleep
Sigh... Feeling really tired, really need a vacation zzz...
So I guess it's a good thing I'm taking the whole of next week off:) hahas a chance to get some R&R and generally get away from technology and everything else. Need to think of some stuff and to sort out my mind, been feeling too confused and irritable recently for my own good.
Like behaving uncharacteristically short tempered compared to the usual me. Or being unnecessarily cruel/difficult to the people I deal with. I can blame the fatigue all I want, but the actions that have been done are inexcusable and undoubtedly done by me. I'm sorry.
I read a book recently, and there was a quote which struck me strongly: "
Dreams are much like curses. People who can't achieve their dreams and people who give up on their dreams will always be cursed by them." You can blame me for being persistent, you can blame me for being irritating, you can blame me for being too deep in idiocy for my own good. But don't blame me for trying to live my life without regrets.
I know you'll be there for me and I'm happy to settle for that. Trust me.
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Signing off at...
10:45 PM
Friday, December 10, 2010
Had an awesome week this time:) filled with a whirlwind of emotions and a whirlwind of quirky situations hahas...
To sum up:
I had my heart broken, repaired it somehow.
Then felt like dying due to overwork, drove on practically the whole of Monday to Tuesday with only a little sleep and a mountain of paperwork to tackle:(
Later on Thursday, I was on duty again to send the people reporting sick to the medical center, but the van I was driving broke down. Had to call a tow truck and then walk 4km to the medical center with a bunch of ill people.
And Friday I had a heritage tour to attend. But I felt my primary takeaway was mosquito bites. so that was a waste of time lol... also bade Raph, Jia Jun and En Liang farewell since they ORD today. Gonna miss those jokers hahas...
All in all a could-have-been-better week. But rather lonely in my opinion. Luckily Poliwag can always be relied on for comfort whenever I'm home:)
Labels: random stuff
Signing off at...
7:27 PM
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Title: Nightly Wishes
Nearly every night before I slumber,
I refrain myself from wishing you good night.
Though such a conviction is simple,
It still gives birth to a heart wrenching emotion.
But as I cry myself to sleep tonight,
I wish you sweet dreams silently from within my heart.
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Signing off at...
10:57 AM
